Mexican Domestic Goddess

On Being Kind of Brown

Jacqui Skemp6 Comments

“That’s racist” we would say. My friends would jokingly call each other out. But that’s what racism was to us. A joke. Because when you go to a school where more than ninety percent of the people there share the same cultural background, you live in a safe bubble, and generally assume that people don’t think less of you for how much melanin is in your skin or what story your DNA tells. I really thought, it can’t be real. Maybe in some backwoods place people still hate, but not in the places I live.

Almost four years ago I met my son, whose skin is the color of cafe con leche, but a little more cafe than leche. He has my father’s green eyes, a gift from his father before him. Unlike his brother, when I was out and about with him, no one asked me if I was his nanny. And when I took my two boys out, I was frequently asked if they were brothers, and when I said yes, I know tongues were held. I knew what the next question was, but I let it sit with people, allowing some shame to seep in. It’s not your business if they both come from the same paternal line. But yes, we did have two children with different skin tones. If you’ve ever met a Mexican family, you wouldn’t be surprised. Our nicknames acknowledge our awareness. We call her morena or preita, and we call him güero. Terms of endearment. You can do a google search.

I used to find it funny that when I took my blond, blue eyed doll of a baby out people assumed I was his nanny. I mean, I’m not very dark, but I do get asked “so… what are you.” But when my second son was born, and since then, I have had numerous encounters that I chalked up to “old people can be crazy” but then I started to wonder if that was really all that there was to it. Sure my boys are loud, but so are my friend’s kids. I’m a little louder, but I know plenty of white women who make me feel like a whispering mouse. When I really started to take a closer look at all these encounters I saw two common threads running through… they were white, and I am not.

I really, really, really don’t like to cry racism. I really don’t. Because I still can’t wrap my head around the idea of someone not respecting me (or my son, or anyone) simply because of some preconceived notion about people who share my genetic background. And yet I do wonder if there’s something there that I’ve chosen to ignore. I wonder why it is so easy for some people to give me a dirty  look, or let me know how they think I should control my kid, or why they think they have the right to wag their finger and insult me. Don’t we bleed the same red?

I have lived in dual worlds from the beginning. Born American with Mexican heritage. Not brown enough for some, or pale enough for others. Too much of a gringa for those in the home country, and yet not quite fully immersed in American culture. I know that this is the reality that will be passed down to my children, though I suspect the inner tug of war might not be as present in their lives.

Maybe my encounters have zero racism, and people are just… awful sometimes. But maybe my suspicions carry some validity. I am not looking for sympathy. I suppose I just want to add to the conversation that racism doesn’t always look the way we expect it to. But damn it, it hurts anyway.

Things I'm Enjoying

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We started the new year with a frigid walk in southern Minnesota, which was ten degrees warmer than it was in the Twin Cities, where there was a high of 6 degrees.

We started the new year with a frigid walk in southern Minnesota, which was ten degrees warmer than it was in the Twin Cities, where there was a high of 6 degrees.

Inspired by Tsh at The Art of Simple, I’m going to dust off this blog and get back into more regular and frequent writing for my own sake and maintain it as a creative outlet.

When I first started this most recent blog, it was after years and years of reading other blogs, and wanting to document our growing family. It soon started to feel like a rat race to get sponsorships and numbers, and not that anything is wrong with that, but I’ve realized that’s not me and what I want for my particular space on the internet. So a couple of years ago (after hosting a blogging conference no less) I took a big step back from writing here, and decided to focus the little creative energy I had into my work for Blessed Is She.

My baby is almost 2, and this is the longest I’ve gone post-baby without a new one on the way, and while sleep is still rare it’s getting better. We also haven’t moved in two years, and with no move in sight, I’m letting myself settle deeper into our home and making it a beautiful place of refuge. I would love to share more about that process here. There won’t be any big before and after’s because the budget wont allow for it. But slow progress is progess and I’m finding that our financial limitations allow me to really think about what I want our space to look like without jumping the gun and then hating the choice.

So let’s start off the year with a few good things that I’m enjoying right now:

  • I’ve been playing a lot of Ray LaMontagne lately, and he just does not disappoint. Ever. He can do no wrong, musically anyway. One of my guilty pleasures is The Voice, and last year this gal did an amazing cover of Jolene and it is well worth the listen.

  • Over Christmas break Ian and I watched Derry Girls on Netflix, and goodness it’s good. Hilarious, smart, and sweet. I need to watch with subtitles because my ears are not good with non-American english, so kuddos to you if you don’t need them. There is only one season and six short episodes, but they are gold. Line after line of gold. I’m ready to rewatch it.

  • I’m finally reading “Four Seasons in Rome” by Anthony Doerr who also wrote “All the Light We Cannot See”. I read the “All the Light” a couple of years ago and it changed something in me. While this is a memoir and not a novel, his writing is still magical. I spent a semester in Rome, and think of it often, but his writing took me right back there. I remember the cold of the stone under the soles of my shoes, and the way Rome smelled in the early mornings. I need to finish it because I really want Ian to read it, not necessarily for the bits on Rome, but the sleep deprivation part. He’s been there. Still is, poor guy.

  • In early December I got to chat with Tsh from The Art of Simple on her podcast. I shared the link elsewhere and joked about dropping some long Minnesotan O’s, and (shocker) none of my Minnesotan friends could hear it. My family in California has been teasing me about it for years.

That’s all I’ve got for now! Hoping to share more with you here soon.


Bundling Up Babies

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{this is a follow up post to my Delighting in Winter post}

When Ian and I were newly twitterpated and so obviously settled on each other, we had a very important conversation about where we saw ourselves living a few years down the road. I said something to the effect of being open to living anywhere, except in a climate where I would have to bundle up babies. Biggest joke on me. If you’re new around here, you might notice in my bio that I have several bundles of joy, and I reside in the great state of Minnesota where I bundle them up seven months out of the year.


I am no pro at bundling kids up, being a native southern Californian and all. I haven’t had a child get frostbite or complain too much about the cold when we’re out in it, so I have figured a few things out and I’m going to tell you how to live your life, so hold on to your seats.

When they’re under two, my babies wear a onesie, ribbed footed tights, snug pants, socks and a long sleeve shirt. The key here are the tights because they keep their legs warm when their pants inevitably roll up their legs.


If they’re over two, I find that girl leggings with a tucked in undershirt work well for snowplay under their suits- Old Navy almost always has them on sale. Same goes for mass. The leggings tucked into socks under their nice pants keeps them toasty. Throw on a light fleece or hoodie if their coat doesn’t already have one.

I’ve had really good luck with the Costco snowsuits for all ages, but I also like the Columbia baby snowsuits. My babies don’t keep their mittens on, so I like the suits that fold over at the hands and feet. Big kids get snow pants.

The best boots for little kiddos are Bogs, hands down. Don’t even bother with anything else. Many of them are lined, some are short with a little velcro strap in the back, others are tall and give kids the extra protection when climbing through snowdrifts, but most importantly, they keep little toes dry and warm. I haven’t had to stress about socks, but I would like to get them some nice wool ones. In the meantime, regular socks that can reach over their base layer pant seem to work just fine.

My big boys are wearing these super trapper hats that their nana gifted them last year. They’ve been amazing and warm and, most importantly, stay on their heads. The baby always gets a pilot cap. I like the fleece lined one. They’re great because they tie on, are a snug fit, and fit under hoods, keeping their cheeks and ears warm.

Every year I pick up about 4 pairs of gloves and mittens from Costco for quick trips and walks, but for serious snow play, get the kind of mittens that are thick and water proof and zip up the side or at least are long enough to tuck into their coat sleeves.

That’s all I’ve got! If you have any suggestions I would love to hear them.